exibition

and by "exibition" i really mean "EX AMBITION," as in mine! my ex boyfriends that is. bleck.there must have been a shift in the universe recently or something because ive been getting an insane amount of unwanted attention from them lately. the first situation was from a boy thats not exactly an ex, but still a milestone. i havent talked to him since he went off to school like 2 years ago. so i post this super dorky picture (and may i add very photoshopped) of me being a "little monster" with a dumbass lady gaga style (hot pink) hair hairbow on top of my head. i could understand if there was any kind of random photo comments on that one. but for him to comment that i "looked good" in it thru me for a loop :/ another was a series of texts from an ex that i havent talked to in a couple months. he texted me "just heard t.i. 'motivation' on my ipod and thougth of you lol" wtf? how does that song have any connection to me or correlation to our past (thank god its in the past!) relationship?? he said it reminded him of a certain time frame in our relationship -omg ill just blush now and get it over with- anyway, moving on from that because no further explaination is needed lol then today while i was at work i had another exboyfriend come into the store to visit me. he also works in the mall so its not that creepy, but still unusual. he used to drop by all the time but hasnt been in since like the holiday season 09. so it was random to say the least. i wonder what all these encounters in my life all of a sudden mean?? i wonder what the future will hold? hmmm.

miranda

so i know this isn't weird or anything. i mean, i know every body's got one -- an alter ego that is! even if you think the idea is really silly and you're convinced that you don't have one, you really do. if you've ever done anything super daring or crazy, something "out of character", that was your alter ego shining through. have you ever said something to someone (ex:a super flirty txt to a boy, bitching out the pretty girl, tell your parents to suck it), something that you would have never otherwise had the guts to do, things that take extra courage. i use mine when im nervous and unsure of whats about to happen. i use mine when im dancing in clubs. i use mine when im drunk and having a good time. i use mine when im with my friends, cracking the first joke. i use mine on my bf, he thinks its just my 'skills'. i use mine for my best friend when she needs the confidence that i dont really have, but i dont mind to lend it to her. i use mine when im out shopping or doing something by myself like walking across campus. its gives me a little extra 'oomph' and i dont feel as stupid. when this entry first crossed my mind today, i was jamming to Miranda Lambert down the interstate. listening to her music gives me this short-lived jolt of confidence and excitement. all her songs are so empowering, singing about conquering love, conquering broken heartedness, catching a cheating boyfriend, confronting hypocrites, and anything else that just makes her feel good about herself. i like it. with Miranda i feel like i can conquer anything. next friday night i think Miranda and i will hit the town. well, maybe just Miranda ;)