shoulder angel

have you ever had the feeling? my mother , ever since i could remember as a child, has referred to it as her "shoulder angel." its the little nudge of subconsciousness. it gives you the feeling of "this is awesome!" or "wow, i am a dumbass, why am i doing this?" im sure you must get that feeling from time to time. im sure every one does. some times its that flirty text message, you send it and "what if my bf got a txt like that from another girl?" crosses your mind. we find ourselves in the grey area of "double-standards." maybe you plan on a sane night, then you see that bottle on the counter...why not. maybe its a hug that lingers just a little too long. a stare. a smile. a giggle. but what happens when we find ourselves in these types of situations, thinking "who cares?" is that really that bad? are we simply having a lapse of judgement? or has our shoulder angel simply taken a break? when we are on a strict diet, and find ourselves finishing that entire butterfinger candy bar. using a few too many ";)" in those txts to those guys that are "just friends"...keep telling yourself that. do you ever tell yourself "just one more -- just one more!" but how about when something you shouldnt do feels sooo good? when your phone lights up with that amazing phrase...NEW TXT. a sip, or two. a puff. a kiss. a caress. using your peak minutes even though you know you shouldnt. doing 60 in a 35, windows down, music blaring. if you agree to any of this, dont feel bad. youre just like me. and thats prob why we like eachother so much :)